Miss Migraine: A list of things that happen to me when I don’t sleep

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The Adventures of Miss Migraine is an ongoing column about my life with chronic migraine. A version of this post appeared first on August 13, 2012, on my blog of the same name.

My body is not adjusting well to venlafaxine (brand name Effexor), an anti-depressant also prescribed for migraine patients. I just. Can’t. Sleep. I started taking melatonin every night to help me sleep, and it does, but only enough so that I don’t go crazy.

A List of Things That Happen To Me When I Don’t Sleep:

  • Coffee. Normally, I only drink tea, and only in the morning. Coffee inevitably makes me feel icky and more headachey, but at least it wakes me up a little.
  • Drifting. Somehow I get from one place to another, but I never remember how I did it. Sometimes I think I turn into a ghost or momentarily disappear, or possibly become Shadow Cat from X-Men and start phasing through solid objects. That, or my sleep-deprived self has the ability to manipulate the time-space continuum.
  • Fangs. My filter disappears and everything gets on my nerves. I feel like I’m jumping out of my skin, like I’m the chalkboard and the world around me is made of nails. I snap at everyone and lose patience at everything.
  • Migraines. Ironic that the medication that’s supposed to be decreasing the frequency and severity of my headaches is currently increasing them because it’s preventing me from sleeping.
  • Dark circles. These happen to everyone, so at least I can feel normal about one thing.
  • Rambling when I don’t sleep I sometimes forget to use punctuation or that sentences and paragraphs exist and my brain moves slowly and I’m afraid to stop it because I’m not sure I will be able to start it again…
  • Delusions. While I’m drinking the coffee, I feel like I can do EVERYTHING. And then I start. The coffee runs out, and I forget what I was doing, or get distracted, or just give up. Which is why I’m going to end this blog post here, before I run out of coffee and forget what I’m supposed to be doing.

(I’m no longer taking venlafaxine, but now I’m on a different drug that’s basically doing the same thing. But it at least helps with the migraines, so…??)